The jealousy-admiration experiment

Hello ex boyfriend,

When I first met you, I liked everything about you- your sense of humor, your intellect, you were affectionate and you were so warm. But there was one thing that bothered me, your attitude towards relationships. I knew how pessimistic you were about them. You had this underlying “gut” feeling that we won’t work out and somewhere perhaps subconsciously you wanted it to not work out. Eventually you had to let me go and leave me to find my path without your support.

Today I’m doing amazing well, thank you for asking. I live in gratitude, I’ve opened up to spirituality, I shine and I bring light to others to the best of my ability. Someday, if we ever go back to being friends, I’ll tell you about my ongoing projects on mental health, my little ways of giving back to the world. Thank you for the damage you did because it gave me an opportunity to heal and lead by example in my own little ways.

Today in an unexpected, unintentional and accidental moment I found out that you were possibly seeing someone now. A wave of jealousy passed through me. However, only a couple of days ago, owing to the fact that I am an alive human motivation radio, I was talking to a friend about converting jealousy into admiration. I practice what I preach so this is my mission now. I’m sharing this in the hope that this might reach and comfort other Jayantis in the world who have to witness their social media being flooded with pictures of their ex’s wedding or a romantic getaway with that “someone else”.

Today I choose to admire you dear ex, for choosing happiness. For choosing love. I’ve said this before and I’ll say it again, everyone deserves to be happy and you of all people absolutely do! You broke my heart and you hurt me, in the past this seemed like a brutal thing to do, but today I am an inclusive person and my heart is full of empathy and compassion. I know that only hurt people hurt people. Thank you for not passing on the hurt. Thank you for healing. Thank you for opening your heart and giving me hope.

I only got a tiny glimpse, I didn’t dare to look much but I’m sure she is beautiful, this girl who changed your mind. I know I couldn’t change your mind about love and I couldn’t show you what a beautiful thing it was. Because it is not within my capacity to uplift everyone but it is within my capacity to uplift myself and not be affected by your feelings about me. I love that you have feelings now, feelings of romantic love, so what if they are not for me? You found magic and romance in your life! Could there be more to ask for? Could there be more to be inspired from? As far as I am concerned. It is my time to grow and contribute and the universe will send me a teammate with a pinch of romance when I’m in need!

To you- congratulations! I hope your gut feels right and your energies are aligned. Love and light to you. You are getting better and better every single day.

Love,

Your non jealous and ever admiring ex girlfriend